Traveling and living away has made me so different. I have changed. For the better? Well, who knows. All I know is that I’ve changed. A lot.
I’m a bit scared of who I’ve become. I’m not this super amazing and brave person, I’m just…different. I take risks, I enjoy people and I do things that I would normally never have done in my entire life. Good risks. Risks I can look back on and say “yeah, I did it!” Whether or not they worked out, I still did them.
I hate the “What if’s” in life. You’re in the moment, why not just enjoy it. Who cares about the past and who gives a damn about the future. I’m not an oracle and neither are you! Just enjoy it.
This is my life. Not a life of missed opportunities. But a life of catch and release. It’s quite tragic really, to recognize that there is a time when things come to an end and its time to leave. But it’s good. To not get too consumed in everything and everyone.
The primary function of Kapha is Protection…
Physical Characteristics: Kapha types have a strong build and excellent stamina. Large, soft eyes; smooth, radiant skin; and thick hair are also important Kapha characteristics. Those who are predominantly Kapha sleep soundly and have regular digestion. But when Kapha builds to excess, weight gain, fluid retention, and allergies manifest in the body. When they’re out of balance, Kapha types may become overweight, sleep excessively, and suffer from asthma, diabetes, and depression.
Emotional Characteristics: Kaphas are naturally calm, thoughtful, and loving. They have an inherent ability to enjoy life and are comfortable with routine. When in balance, Kaphas are strong, loyal, patient, steady, and supportive. People with an excess of Kapha tend to hold on to things, jobs, and relationships long after they are no longer nourishing or necessary. Excess Kapha in the mind manifests as resistance to change and stubbornness. In the face of stress, the typical Kapha response is “I don’t want to deal with it.”
Jordan! You are a peach! I already miss you. Take care and I look forward to our tumblr stalking :)
I feel as if I’ve lost my inspiration and my will to creativity. I don’t know what happened. Maybe it’s the result of having worked 6 months straight with only a one day off in all that.
Maybe it’s the results of 6 months of cruise ship clutter. The ups and downs, relationships woes and celebrations.
Maybe it’s 6 months of repeated cruise ship work and cruise ship life.
Or maybe it’s just 6 months of American teenagers or just Americans and their ignorance.
I need a break. Not a break in the sense of not doing anything, but just a break so that I can taste liberation and freedom again. So I can travel and be inspired.
I don’t understand how a person can stay in one place for a long time. I’ve only been doing cruise ships for one year and already I want out. And I want something different.
Today, I heard the sound of thunder. After months if not hearing anything, I heard it again.